Friday, April 21, 2006

It’s been a while

This has not been the best of weeks.

On Tuesday I had to make the final decision about whether to end my little Nikki’s suffering. She was unable to swallow anything (even water) so there was no question of what to do. She died peacefully.

I keep thinking that I’m doing really well adjusting to not having any pets. Then I’ll start putting my knitting away for the night and I start to say "Ok little girl, sleepy time" and catch myself. There are a million little things that I’ve been doing for the last 19+ years that I don’t have to do now. It’s a much bigger adjustment than I ever thought it would be.

The past week or so, while my little girl was in a steady decline, I decided I needed to knit something that was simple enough that I didn’t need to count or keep track of a pattern, but not boring. So I started the Moderne Log Cabin Afghan from the Mason Dixon Knitting book. I don’t even know if I have enough yarn to finish it, but since I had multiple skeins of 4 colors of Lion Brand Wool-ease that I’d not done anything with, it seemed pre-destined. Besides, LBWE is fairly easy to come by and since its all color blocks, who cares if lot numbers match?

I’ve taken to calling this my "Sad Blankie". I figure if my nephew can have a
"Happy Blankie" that I made for him then I can have a sad one. I’ve been making a lot of progress on it since I got home Tuesday.

The new job is going great in spite of the fact that I had to take a day off on Tuesday. They were very understanding and that made all the difference in the world. Besides any company who has a velvet portrait of the head of the division in the main conference room is most definitely the place for me.

To finish on an up note... The Yarn Harlot blogged me. How cool is that?


Roberta said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I hope the job is going well...

definitely thinking about you.

Dorothy said...

Sending some comforting thoughts your way. Losing a piece of your life really sucks.

Nerdy Knitter said...

I'm so sorry for your loss--you definitely deserve a sad blankie--the world might be a better, kinder place if everyone had their own sad blankie for comfort in sad times.

Warm thoughts are headed your way from Virginia.

NeedleTart said...

Just lost our furry child of 20 years, believe me, I can empathize. Sorry your playmate is gone.

Calling Kahlo said...

I am sorry for your loss. It is so difficult to lose a pet/family member. My thoughts are with you...