Plans Change and Disappointment Ensues

I’ve been stressing out about a big thing in my life that I’ve been mulling over and “processing” (thinking about obsessively).

I need another surgery on the knee I just had surgery on last summer. It’s been making a horrible crunchy noise for a while now. The doctor was convinced that once all the muscles in my knee were strengthened up again, the new knee cap component would align properly and the crunching would stop.

That didn’t happen.

So the last time I saw my ortho surgeon (a month ago), he said that I needed arthroscopic surgery to clean out the scar tissue and fascia that has built up and is catching under the knee cap. (Oh and Yes! It’s painful!) He’ll also cut the tendon that holds the knee cap in place, because my tendon didn’t tighten up like it should have (and does in every other human who has this surgery!) BUT, while he’s in there looking around, and when he cuts the tendon, he may decide that the patella implant needs to be moved because the cutting of the tendon won’t help on its own. That means he’ll cut the knee open again, and put in a new knee cap component.

The crappiest part about all this is that I don’t get a real vacation again this year. It’s like the 3rd or 4th year in a row that I won’t get to go to NC for the family vacation. But the knee needs to be taken care of.

I’m so bummed out.

I promise knitting content, kittehs and the present I bought myself in the next posts.