I had my annual review at work last week and on the whole it was positive. I got glowing marks for my admin work, but not so glowing on the office manager part. That’s OK. This is the first time I’ve ever been an office manager so I’m learning.
One thing that was in my review was that I was to take a trip to NY State and be trained in my office manager duties. They got the OK from the office manager at the NY location and it took me 2 months to firm up the dates I was going to go. It was a four hour drive one way and an overnight stay in a city I’d never been to. The comment on my review was “The training was helpful but we had to remind her on several occasions to go, and she didn’t make the training trip until 2 months later”.
When they asked me to go, I was in the beginning of my therapy and starting to get the anxiety and agoraphobia under control. I didn’t think it was any of their business what I was going through and I told them I wanted to wait till the weather was a little better before I drove to upstate NY (by the Great Lakes). There was no way I could have made that trip at that time. I went when I had my disorder under control.
It didn’t really surprise me that it showed up on my review, but what really bugs me is that I had a valid reason for not immediately hoping in my car and making the 4 hour trip and still it was a mark against me. I'd been looking at it as a personal victory all this time.
What I want to do is go into my boss’s office, close the door and tell them why I took me 2 months to make the trip. It still isn’t any of their business, but I want them to know that I had a reason, a medical reason, why I didn’t go immediately.
But it’s water under the bridge now. The review is signed and filed with HR.
And yet I’m still annoyed.